"everybody's saying that hell is the hippest way to go, well i don't think so"

"Hindi gawang biro o kasiyahan ang magpinta ng iba't-ibang mukha ng kalungkutan. Anong salita kaya ang magsasaad ng lahatlahat?"

-Edel Garcellano

galing akong panglao, bohol nung weekend. at pagbalik sa m--- naghihintay ang mga desisyon at problema. isa sanang magandang paraan para makapagrelax ang paglayo sa m--- pero naknamputsa, kinapitan ako ng lungkot. sa kamamalas-malsan, imbes na mag-enjoy ay nagpapatahan ako ng sarili, hindi ko alam kung bakit, o kung saan nanggagaling. pero nung ikatlong araw na at pabalik na kami sa m---, tsaka naman ako naging ok. natatakot tuloy ako baka clinical na itong pagkabalisa't kalungkutan. isang malalim na buntunghininga. ito muna, baon na kanta mula sa panglao:

blue
joni mitchell


Blue, songs are like tattoos
You know I've been to sea before
Crown and anchor me
Or let me sail away
Hey Blue, THERE is a song for you
Ink on a pin
Underneath the skin
An empty space to fill in
Well there're so many sinking now
You've got to keep thinking
You can make it thru these waves
Acid, booze, and ass
Needles, guns, and grass
Lots of laughs, lots of laughs
Everybody's saying that hell's the hippest way to go
Well I don't think so
But I'm gonna take a look around it though
Blue, I love you

Blue, here is a shell for you
Inside you'll hear a sigh
A foggy lullaby
There is your song from me