antala

Isang linggo na ang nakakraan nang balikan ko ang pagthethesis. Hanggang ngayon kahit nga intro part ng thesis ay hindi ko pa tapos. eto talaga ang ultimate karma, o dharma nga ba? for that, tinulaan ko na lang monitor ng computer, sakaling makipag-cooperate na ako sa kanya...

Oda sa di matapus-tapos na thesis

i.
Patawarin nawa ako kung ihalintulad ko
itong pagka-antala
sa inilulunsad na istratehiya:
pagguhit ng bilog
paglipol sa tiwali
pagpapanibagong hubog
paggapi sa mga kaaway ng gabi

ii.
Ang aksyong ito’y taktika ng dibersiyon.

iii.
Humihikab na ang bentilador
sa mabagal na tikatik ng pihikang titik.
Mas madalas pang nalilimas
ang mga salitang ayaw lumabas.

iv.
Katwiran ko’y kayraming tulad ko sa bayang ito,
samantalang ang mga dekampanilya’y tinutuya.

v.
Iba ang pag-iinat sa pagbabanat.
Ang una’y para magising,
ang isa nama’y para mabuhay.

2:02 am; 17 Setyembre 2006
Kalye Burgos

"i don't want to perish like a fading voice"

birthday ng lola ko ngayon, at ililibing siya mamayang tanghali. ngayon ko lang uli nakita yung ibang pinsan ko, hindi ko na nga makilala yung iba. ngayon lang din ako nakapag-reconnect sa kanila kasi hindi naman ako sumasama sa mga reunion, o pag sumasama ay hindi naman ako nakikipag-socialize sa kanila, for the longest time. anyway, napaisip tuloy ako ng repertoire kapag nam,atay ako na patutugtugin sa funeral service ko. hehehe. eto lang ang naisip ko sa ngayon:

1. fast car- tracy chapman (hahaha)
2. imagine- eva cassidy cover ng beatles
3. fragile- sting
4. fields of gold- eva cassidy cover ng orig ni sting
5. going for gold- bright eyes
6. landslide- smashing pumpkins cover ng fleetwood orig
7. the scientist- coldplay
8. satisfied mind- jeff buckley
9. opened once- jeff buckley
10. woodstock- joni mitchell
11. till tomorrow- don mclean
12. awit ni canuplin
13. here's where the story ends- the sundays
14. forever young- youth group
15. mad world- gary jules cover ng tears for fears orig

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forever young
(youth group)

let's dance in style
let's dance for a while
heaven can wait we're only watching the sky
hoping for the best but expecting the worst
are you gonna drop the bomb or not
let us die young or let us live forever
dont have the power but we never say never
sitting in the sandpit
life is a short trip
music's for the sad man
can you imagine when this race is run
turn our golden faces into the sun
praisin our leaders, getting in tune
the music's played by the mad men
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever
some like water and some are like the heat,
some are melodies, some are the beat,
sooner or later they'll all be gone,
why don't they stay out
it's hard to get on without a cause,
i don't want to perish like a fading voice,
youth is like diamonds in the sun,
diamonds are forever
so many adventures couldn't happen today
so many songs we forgot to play
so many dreams swinging out of the blue
left to come true
forever young, i want to be forever young,
do you really want to live forever
forever, forever
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever
forever, forever
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever
forever young, i want to be forever young
do you really want to live forever,
forever, forever...

sentro de grabedad, hebigat!

Seven things I want to do before I die:
1. a road trip with me and myself. my version of che' la poderosa
2. make a film, not necessarily an influential film pero yung masasatisfy ko yung sarili ko at yung mga pinaninindigan ko
3. release a book, mix genre, ala borderlands ni anzaldua
4.magkaroon ng sariling coffee shop, art space/gallery na banned ang mga poseur na wala naamn talagang alam sa art, parang yung dating odd manila/ crowded house, pero hindi malulugi
5. speak french, portuguese and spanish fluently, mag-aral sa france at italy
6. tour of south america
7. magkaroon ng sariling pad, kahit studio type lang at magpa-bohemian party gabi-gabi, pero ala barefoot contessa,. how contradicting!

Seven things I cannot do:
1. touch type
2. commit with something for more than a year
3. morning exercise/jogging
4. diet/magpapayat
5. kumanta at tumapos ng kanta na hindi na-a-out of tune o na-o-off key
6. read minds
7. fall in love (wahahahaha)

Seven things that attract me to both a boy and a girl:
1. Matalino/may cultural capital (true)
2. masarap kausap sa madaling araw, o kayang i-tolerate ang mood swings ko
3. depressive
4. hindi bigot
5. ka-wavelength
6. may dvd at book collection
7. may art sa katawan, yung tama lang, ayaw ko yung pa-french hindi naman bagay sa klima ng bansa

Seven things that I say most often:
1. ... (fragments)
2. ambalaj
3. fatale/wafaz-in
4. chuva
5. charot!
6. keri
7. duraan ko siya e.

Seven books I love to read:
1. salinger
2. literary folios
3. neruda
4. gamalinda
5. rilke
6. garcellano
7. michael cunningham


Seven movies I could watch over and over again:
1. almost famous (20x and still counting)
2. before sunset/sunrise
3. chungking express
4. amores perros
5. kung mangarap ka't magising
6. puso ng pasko (hehehe)
7. pleasantville/ joy luck club

Seven people I'm tagging to do this survey:
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